Recently I've been having some problems with my wisdom teeth growing in. One in particular has been giving me the most trouble. Sitting here thinking about all of this aching that's going in on my mouth led me to start thinking about all of the discomfort that's going on in my mind.
In less than 48 hours I will be doing a lot of things for the very first time. I will be leaving the country. I will be on an airplane. And I will be traveling alone. Those are just the three firsts that I think I am the most worried about. I am going to be pushed to my limit over this next month and I am terrified.
However, I think that all of this is so necessary for my personal growth. If there aren't growing pains then there isn't growth. If it doesn't push you to your limit, it's not progression. I get very uncomfortable with change. I also get extremely uncomfortable with things that are outside of my control. That causes me to become stagnant in life because I don't want to take chances. Yes I may apply for a new job or run for a new position in a student organization but that's not real growth for me. I am comfortable with those things. I know my strength lies in my career skills, public speaking, etc.
This new adventure is pushing me so far out of my comfort zone. I know a lot of tears and hardships are going to ensue. A lot is not going to go my way. I am so terrified to experience this. But I'm also very excited and ready. I know that once I board the plane to come back home, I will be practically a new person. My outlook is going to be completely different and I'm going to be a better woman because of it.
This is my first opportunity to completely throw myself out into the open. And I can't wait to bring all of you along with me.
Smooches,
The College Natural
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